The Girl of My Dreams Pt. IV

Dear Journal,

Inside my body my stomach felt like it was doing back flips. It feels a bit uncomfortable, and yet I feel comfortable with it.

I was still amazed that Teresa said she loved me over the phone last night. It feels so good to discover the one you're searching for shares the same feelings. I was really speechless, I just couldn't believe it!

As I was sleeping, I couldn't help but dream about Teresa and I together: us spending so much time together going out on dates, me adoring her sweet personality and her beautiful body, her adoring my....

Wait! What does she like about me? Well, I am generally a nice, helpful person, that could be it.

So far, we have three things in common.

Or maybe she thinks I'm a smokin' hot stud. Could be, Alex, could be. Although I don't really feel like one.

Oh, come on, Alex, have self-confidence. I'm not an ugly guy, but I feel average. I do have some muscles, but I am kinda chunky.

Guess I have to find out tomorrow.



The next morning, I woke up feeling refreshed, happy, and anxious. Tomorrow is today, and Teresa and I will meet again. I was anxious to meet her; however, I was curious as to what she found interesting of me enough to spill her feelings over the phone.

Well, the time is here.

I couldn't help but take note of my anxiety of speaking to girls. It's not that I don't want to speak to them. For some reason, it just happens. Even if it does, I am not going to let it get to me. I just need to calm down.

All morning, I had Teresa on the brain. I couldn't help it. On my way to college, I had a big smile on my face. I couldn't care how crazy I looked to other people.

Today's going to be a great day. Don't blow it, Alex.

The afternoon came quickly. After a morning of kicking butt in both statistics and microcomputer class, I was prepared to experience the highlight of the day - meeting Teresa in the cafeteria.

Making my way down the hall, I used the time to calm myself down and take deep breaths. I was going to make sure my anxiety won't get in the way today. In fact, I began to feel more confident, a little different than I used to be. That feeling was just what I needed.

And there I was: at the cafeteria. People were there, most of them chatting it up with their friends, on their cell phones, using the web on their laptops, or just plain eating. I decided to buy some burgers and fries that caught my attention, along with green tea to wash it down with. Carrying my tray, I made my way to search for Teresa.

I spotted her immediately.

She was sitting by herself with her notebooks and lunch. Her back was facing me, but I noticed her brown hair resting on the back of her snug dark blue t-shirt that hugged her body while showcasing  her soft-looking back rolls. My smile widened immediately. I also noticed across the table she was sitting in was another chair, waiting for me to sit down.

This is it, Alex. This is it.


"Oh, hi! You kinda scared me."

As she looked up, my face felt warm when I stared into her pretty eyes. I didn't want to look anywhere else.

"Uh...sorry about that. So, how are the classes going?"

"Pretty well, actually. I just need some help with some of these equations, though. I could really use your help. I'll wait until you finish your meal."

"Sure, no problem."

I started biting into my burger when I noticed Teresa was eating a big bowl of salad, along with chicken nuggets, a baked potato and a turkey and cheese sub.

This girl's got an appetite!

"UUURRRRP! Ooh, excuse me!" Teresa blushed.

It was at that moment I wanted to stop eating and watch her polish off her meal. I have to admit, it was quite a turn-on.

"Don't worry about it. You know, in some cultures, belching during a meal shows that you appreciate the meal."

"I certainly do!" She giggles. "Alex, I also wanted to talk to you about the phone call last night...what I said at the end...I really meant it."

I slowly dropped my burger. I could hear my heartbeat increase.

"I know we kind of just met, but I can't help but admit that I really like you. Just like how you expressed your affection to me. You seem really sweet and down-to-earth.  I also noticed you seem to admire a big girl like me.  Last night I was dreaming about you and I together, sharing each others company. I just had to say what I felt. I'd really like to get to know you better."

I was speechless of the bravery it took for her to express her feelings. I mean, I expressed my feelings about her, but in a neurotic, spastic manner, but not like this. My heart was pounding at the moment. I could feel my face warm up.

"I'm really glad you feel the same way," I spoke finally. "I'd really like to get to know you better, too. You just seem like an amazing woman to be with. You made my day, Teresa."

Teresa blushed. So did I. We were sitting there, spilling our feelings out. It made us feel different because, knowing my anxiety, it would take me a truckload of courage to express myself. Yet here I am, staring at my person of affection, clicking with each other. It felt incredible.

"Umm, these math problems aren't due until tomorrow. I was wondering, whenever you're finished with classes for today, if you could come over to my house tonight and help me."

"Yes," I said with a lovestruck grin on my face. "I would love to."

It was then I felt like a completely different person. The anxiety that was built up inside of me slowly faded away, replaced by that much-needed source of bravery and true happiness. Teresa was my doctor, and she cured me with love.

"Then, it's a date. Hey, since we have enough time, want to watch me demolish this meal?" Teresa chuckled.

How could I say no to that?

"Oh, yeah, " I said in a nerdy manner.

"Do you have a watch?"

"Yeah. You want me to use the stopwatch?"

"Yep. Time me, baby. I want to finish before two minutes."

"Alright, whenever your ready... set...GO!"

As soon as I pressed the start button on the watch, Teresa chowed down with intensity. I barely kept my eyes on the time as I couldn't help but watch her pig out in such an unashamed conviction. Just watching her cram so much food into her mouth, as her belly was slowly filling up and pouring out the bottom of her shirt, made this day even better.

"HHUUUUUURRRRRRP! Done! Uh, Alex, what's the time?"

D'oh!

"Oh, sorry! Uhh, I guess it was less than...two..."

"It's okay, Alex. I understand. See you tonight."

Teresa gave me a shy smile and left for class. As I watched her sexy big body exit the cafeteria into the hallway, the amount of joy and excitement inside of me increased.

Today is DEFINITELY going to be a great day.